Blogging, this isn't how you do it....

Ever have one of those days where you want to call & talk to a friend but you just have too much to say and instead you think you'll email only you're not quite sure where exactly to begin so you think you'll just text her a quick 'hi & love u' but you get sidetracked because the dog barfs on the living floor just about the same time that you smell the distinct odor of something burning in the oven?

No?

Dang.  Only me then. 

What I'm trying so inelegantly to say is that sometimes I can be a horrifically fair-weather blogger.  If I've got too much going on (if only ever in my mind) then I tend to internalize until it's safe to peek out from  underneath my shell. 

So, what have I been doing with my time?

A little writing and a little reading. 

I've finished reading Nora Roberts new book, The Witness.  As always, it was super speedy and easy on my brain.  I love Nora.  She may not be the best writer in the world but her commercial success speaks for itself.  And 99% of the time, I love the characters that she creates.  So definitely two thumbs up on this book. 

The hubs and I watched Zero Dark Thirty last night.  And while it sits at 2-1/2 hours long, I don't remember it feeling like 280 minutes long.  It was fast-paced and intriguing, of course.  I know it was a dramatization of the events surrounding Osama Bin Laden's death.  But the culmination of it in the middle of the night, was just one small step in a huge journey.  And movie or no, it was interesting to see how they got from point A to point Z. 

We've been dealing with some very full creeks and rivers around here this week so it's very nice to see the sun shining and the temps warming up the windowsills and the concrete.  I've got little girls who wanna use up the sidewalk chalk and a boy who has a new basketball hoop. 


Also, I can't really say a lot about the Boston Marathon bombings other than that the families of the victims are in my heart and in my prayers and I pray for the bomber, too.  I can't help that part of me.  It's who I am. 

Alright.  I have some kitchen chairs to finish covering and a life to be living.  I will check in with you kool kats on the flipside.  Take it easy this week.  Be kind to each other.  No, strike that.  Be excellent to each other. 

You're my kryptonite....

....Oh my god.

Okay, first thing is first:  So sorry it's been so long since I've written anything down here. 

I'd like to say that it's because I've just busier than a one-armed coat hanger and partly, that's true.  But mostly, I just haven't been feeling it. 

Or maybe it's been because I've been feeling too much. 

And those feelings are fun things like being overwhelmed and drowning in my own thoughts.  And when that happens, dear friends, I duck and cover.

It's not a particular dignified coping mechanism, but it's mine. 

I think one of the most difficult things about blogging or writing is keeping momentum and to keep on trudging through even when you don't feel particularly awesome about anything.  Let me also say that I'm thankful for my daily blessings of my hubby and kiddos as I would be on the corner of no and where without them.  But, there are times as momma and a woman, where I'm just plain old fashioned burnt out. 

So in the interest of sanity, it's best to step away from the keyboard sometimes because not every thought I have in my head needs documented and there are times where you just gotta breathe without the crushing need to write it down.

I'd love to say that I've been painting our kitchen and bathroom and it's just because I'm working on a plan for our garden but that would be a big fat lie.  So, in the spirit of keeping it real, I will tell you that I've been reading oodles, snuggling with my short folks some, laughing with the teen, checking in with the step-d and just muddling through until Spring pokes its head up outta the ground manifesting as daffodils, tulips, and forsythia.

It's been a long winter, pals.

Time for some sunshine.  

For now, I'd like to:

- Go for a long walk by myself.

- Plan a garden with Sadie.

- Talk to Jude more about her views on the world (Seriously, anytime you need a reality break, talk to a five year old about the state of the union.  There is nothing in the world that will put your life into perspective than a kid).

- Play some MarioKart with the boy.  I've got an orange turtle shell with your name on it, dude.

- Go out for dinner with step-daughter and enjoy her laugh.  She and Sadie have the same laugh (ie. when they're truly happy, they laugh like a drunken sailor.  It's a thing of beauty, folks). 

- Get out in that flat bottom boat with that guy of mine with nothing but time and the admirable ambition of drowning some worms.

What's on your Springtime agenda?